Let me just start out by saying that I have never been so tired in my life. I don't know how people have tons of kids because one so far is definitely a lot of work! My life revolves around feeding, changing, burping, bouncing, rocking, etc. our little guy. I haven't showered in two days or changed my outfit. I have managed to brush my teeth every day though, so at least bad breath isn't an issue. I've got to
give Brannon a lot of credit too. He's really stepped up his game with the arrival of our baby. He's been doing laundry, dishes, keeping the house tidy, and taking his fair share of turns with the baby at night. I can see that Brannon has two loves in his life now. I'm so glad that I've got a husband who loves kids because I'm always ready for a break when he gets home from work and Brannon will take over baby duty for practically the rest of the night. He's the man:) We've now experienced what I call "The blowout diaper" twice now. The first time Brannon was changing him and the blowout began with the diaper off....so yeah, big mess. I've never laughed so hard in my life when I watched Brannon gagging as he tried to catch the poo in a diaper and yelp when Taj start
ed peeing all over the place. I wasn't that big of a help on that one. Breastfeeding has been an adventure too, and not a fun one. Taj will not latch on for the life of me and thus I am married to the pump right now. This pump is high-tech too. It's hospital standard and it's got two suction cups, so I get double the pumping capacity at the same time. I'll say this...the pump has saved me from mastitis, but I feel like I can't go anywhere too far away from it or I'll die. I feel like a Jersey milk cow. I'm pretty sure I can relate to milk cows now and no, it is not fun being milked:( So I'm hoping that with more practice and a lot of patience that Taj and I can master the art of breastfeeding. It has been so frustating because I totally expected him to just latch on and Wahlah!, breastf
eeding made easy. I've been to three lactation specialists, tried many techniques, and have endured several painful failed breastfeeding sessions with these specialists. So if anyone has any tips for me, please do share because I'm willing to try anything at this point. Parenthood is a tough adjustment and I think I took the time I could go anywhere and do anything on my own time for granted. I never realized how much it takes to raise a baby. I think the toughest part is feeling like I'm not just me anymore. I'm a mom now too and it truly is a selfless calling in life because a lot of things take the back seat when it comes to raising a child. So right now I am just trying to get through this adjustment and take one day at a time. I know that things will get better with time:) Right now I am just enjoying our baby and the precious little time I have each day to spend with my husband.